Intro/ Other stuff

Intro: This is supposed to be a private journal for me, because typing is easier than handwriting. Maybe I can blog about other stuff, like me and Jess's weightloss/ healthy lifestyle and crafting, mabye I can get different journals for different subjects?

Alex:
I've written so many journal entries on Devin but none on Alex. I think that is because Devin is such a psychopath so I had to find a way to understand that condition and also to vent about it. I haven't written about Alex because so much of my experience with him is archived in conversations with him and letters to other people. But this is an official entry to let it be known why I am so happy with him.

I love Alex in so many ways, here are the ways that I have thought of, not in any particularly relevant order:
Brotherly: We've been living together at his home on weekends with his family, under the care and kindness of his parents, so it's like we're both sort of being taken care of by the same people. I feel like since i've gotten the opportunity to be a part of his family we are able to grow closer from experiences from living with them and I think that is really cool.

Friend: This relationship is based mainly on humor. I think Alex is so funny, his humor and his mannerisms can be hilarious and adorable and I always get a kick out of him just because he's a lighthearted guy. Also, I can talk to him about most of the things I talk to my friends about (even some girl stuff, but I try to keep that minimal) but especially about my thoughts and opinions on all sorts of things ranging from what I learn in class to my observations about our friends and family. He always listens and is supportive and he gives me in depth answers about his opinions too.

Boyfriend: Well duh i'm attracted to him. We both acknowledge though that there is this connection between us that goes way deeper than friendship. We are so appreciative of eachother and the ability to share so much together. Alex thinks that i'm not only funny but he thinks i'm cute. Cute is important because that insures that he loves me in a way that has to do somewhat with attraction. I love how he get excited about his puppies doing puppy stuff because that lets me know that he gets excited when I do cute Sarah stuff!

Soulmate: sounds extreme, maybe it is. We are a lot alike in so many ways. I listen to people talk about Alex in highschool and when he tells me his life experiences and his thoughts on them I realize that they often are so paralell to mine that it's retahded. The fact that we can be so alike but still like eachother so much I think is great.

Partner: Alex is fair and patient and can appreciate my good qualities too, so whenever i'm pretending to be bitchy or my spiteful envious side comes out I know that he can help me work on it and I also have the confidence that he sees the good stuff too. I know that he sees me as equal to him so he doesn't have a problem letting me pay when I have money, it doesn't cause the stress of him feeling bad or stressed out, and I know that we can be a team and use our resources to help eachother out when we have them. I also feel like if we both somehow end up being destitute, it may be a sad time but we can find a way to make things work because what we have is worth the effort.

This isn't to say that I am really anxious about a ton of other stuff in our relationship, that will be in a later blog when I don't have to read so much for homework. I'm glad that I finally officially got to document my feelings about Alex though!